What a tiring day.
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
Hi. I swear that today was one hell of a tiring day. Woke up at 9am just this morning when class is suppose to start at 9am. -.- Gotta freaking quit this habit of coming late to class as its gonna affect my attendances and GPA points. I don't know what is up with me today? Was super cranky at school and I think its due to the lack of sleep? Maybe or I'm just exhausted cause I had to work yesterday night. :/ I'm working again tomorrow. -.- But thanked god that there's no school on friday and finally I can just rest and rot my ass at home. Well, I was excuse from class early just now cause I had an appointment at CGH and bad news, I will be going for another surgery after cambodia trip. Was'nt really that happy. Sighs, this is gonna be the third surgery on my back, on the same spot. Doctor says that I might have to go through an MRI scan to see whether the cyst on my back have spread to my bones? Plus the MRI scan will cost me about 500 bucks? WHERE THE FUCK AM I GONNA GET THAT KINDA AMOUNT OF MONEY? I really hate whats going on now. I just feel I'm better off dead, I'm forever giving my parents problems. *huge sighs* I just wanna get this done and over with. :'(
Deep thoughts.
Monday, November 07, 2011
Hi. Time check is 2:54am and I'm still not asleep. Hoorraaaayyyyyyy. Since it was Hari raya haji, I spend the whole afternoon with family at nenek's house. No duit raya but till, I ate alot and I also manage to see budak gemok. That boy is forever cheeky, I swear that I could'nt stop kissing him just now, too cute lah! Hahaha. Just spend some equality time with family and reached home about like 11pm? Well, overall it was a nice day spend at nenek's house. :) Shall be heading to bugis library later with qais, to study. Since I got a CMN's test tomorrow. -.- So shall spend atleast 3-4 hours on maths. Urgh, hoping to atleast pass the test & after I'm done studying, shall spend the time taking pictures of random sceneries. I've always wanted to do that but I never got the time to do that. So why not do it later??
Now I can't sleep. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me? My body clock is seriously fucked up. Its nearly coming to a year of being single. Well, good life I may say but sometimes the feeling of missing being loved by somebody is there. Yeahs, I'm feeling it now actually. I miss getting hugs at the back, I miss getting kisses all over my face, I miss how sometimes talking about every single thing with a certain someone, no matter how silly or embarassing it is but ended up laughing together after that. Well, I miss that. I don't miss anyone, its just that I miss having all that. The feeling is just really overwhelming until to a certain extend that it makes me wanna cry sometimes? Really envy looking at those who are attached now. How happy they are? When I'm here killing my way to find happiness for myself. Yeah, I'm thankful for atleast having great friends and an awesome family for always being there for me whenever I need them. But sometimes, we just need a certain someone who is abit special and close to our hearts.
I'm just tired of feeling this way, I'm just tired of feeling so insecured about the myself and the way that I look and I'm tired of the feeling where I'm never gonna be good enough for anyone. Sighs. I may be all smiles. But overall, I'm just a girl with a messed up life and a messed heart. Goodnight.
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Friday, November 04, 2011
Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! Finally I can get to update my blog cause for these past few months, blogger have been a bitch. I can't even post updates. Annoying right? -.- Anw, things between me and yusof have longgggggggggggg ended already. I had my reasons why I had to let him go, believe me, it wasnt easy letting someone who has been with you for nearly a year. Everything happens for a reason. Never the less, it wasnt his fault. I guess we are just no fated to be together. So its okay. Wish him all the best in his new relationship with his current gf now. :)
Anw, I managed to get into a new school which is in ITE college central tampines. Currently in the course, higher nitec in electronics. All I can say is that higher nitec aint easy. So trying my best to cope with everything, insyaallah boleh and yes, I did makes new classmates. Did I mention that all of my new classmates are awesome? Haha. :D Plus I'll be going to cambodia for a CIP trip this 8th december! YAYYYY! My first ever plane ride and first time going to other country accept for malaysia & that was when I was only 9. It was 10 years back. -.- HAHAHAHAH. SO STOKED FOR CAMBODIA! One month left to cambodia! Gonna be helping the less fortunate students aged 3-20? The guys are going to help renovating their classroom while me, atikah and rashidah will be teaching the students, basic english & play some games with them. I'll be in cambodia for 2 weeks. Hoping that I would'nt cry due to missing home. Cause this is the first time that I'll away from home, that long. But whatever it is, nothing can stop me from having a chance to go to cambodia. :D
Ohh Yes, I went to the paramore concert again last 21st august. I swear to god, I had the time of my life headbanging to their songs. Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, you can never get sick of paramore I tell you. Plus, Hayley invited a fan on stage to sing with her. He even got the chance snap a picture of him with hayley and the swallers (the band on tour with paramore) on stage. What a lucky bastard. HAHAHAHAHAHA. But it was one hell of a night to remember. There's alot of things that i wish to update on about. But if I do upate about it, I can go forever. Haha. So I shall start blogging regularly. Till then, have a great weekends people. :)
Finally an update .
Sunday, March 06, 2011
Hi hello ! I know it has been awhile since I update my blog . Kinda miss blogging . :) Been too busy working and too busy being lazy at the same time too . Hehe . Alot have happen , well I've quit my current job as a screener at CGH . Gonna miss all the makciks there , kak norsiah , chua (cisco) , kak muyas , kak haliza , bakir and kak fida . Plus I think its was so sweet of all the makciks to buy me a present and suprise me on my last day of work . Thank you , Ill never forget you all . :)Okay currently now , I'm working at Cathay with my baby girls , Kak ayul & meeraaaaaaaaaaaaa . :D
Not to forget ! Shazwan will also be working with me . hehehehehehehehehe . Okay lah , it will be less boring for me . Been working for 3 days already , the
work there is okay , the people there is also friendly but I just gotta endure the 8-9 hours of standing . Macam nak potong kaki aku je . But Im looking forward to the work there cause its fun . :) Ohh yeah plus I got my results already and my application for higher nitec was unsucessful . :( So I had to reappeal again and the result is will be this 1st april . Hopefully , I can get into a higher nitec course . Cause I really miss going to school and nobody knows how much I want to be in a school now . :( If I still can't get into a higher nitec course , I shall wait for next year and try to retake any nitec course but its not going to be automotive technology anymore . Its going to be other course or I shall take private O's ? Must atleast have a plan B in anything that we do right ? So I'm going start saving for my private O's as well , going to retake my english , maths & science . Insyaallah boleh punya . *crossfinger* :D
Anyway , things between the boy is doing very well & we just turned 9th this month . Okay lah , I know only 9th months . HAHA . Masih kental lagi . lol . But I know he has been there for me everyday and everytime when I needed him . I could'nt ask for anything more . :) I love you boyfriend cause you mean the world to me right now . Looking forward to spend more months with you . Insyaallah . :) Tayang tayang ! ~
I GOT WORK TOMORROW AT 9AM UNTIL 6PM . UHHHH SIAN . OKAY BYE . :D
BORED .
Monday, January 24, 2011
Now I'm starting to feel bored working most of the time . 12 hours 12 hours , die lah like that . :( But nvm lah . Anw , starhub just had to cut off my handphone lin,e for the time being , I can't make any outgoing calls or text people . I can only receive incoming calls and text messages . How great is that ? I receive my bills on the 22rd jan and they cut off my bills on the 24th ? Tsk ! Really not funny ! Cause right now , Im having sucha hard time to my family and friends which sucks . :( How can they cut off my bill when I did atleast make a payment of 100 bucks last month ? Sheesh . As soon as i get my pay , I'm going to pay full this time and then I'm gonna fuck starhub for this .*middlefinger* Yes , life have been getting boring ever since I've been working . Urgh . Really hoping I can continue schooling and I'm miss going to school badly . So please results , please please please be good to me . PLEASE . *crossfingers* 15th february , COME QUICK . Ohh yeahs , me and mom are going to stop going to new york skin solution , the treatment is just fucking expensive . For one treatment is 107 bucks , lamer lamer botak jugak sia mak aku nanti . Now the sucky thing is that my face is fucking red . Macam clown . Aku tak suka please . :'( Okay bye , nak tidur !Sometimes I wish I could erase some of my memories cause I did'nt know it would hurt me this much.
Updates.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Hi . Looks like I'm updating again . My weeks were spend with Ex-classmates playing frisbee . How awesome is that ? After playing frisbee , went slacking under the voideck playing never ending games and even have supper at mac which was at tampines west community centre. Its was fun . :D Thanks hannan , shah , hykel , mishardy and jai for the awesome day . :) Took alot of pictures but I'm playing lazy to post it all here . All of it is at my fb . Thanked god , I got myself a job . Well , it might not be at Topshop or any of the retails outlets , but I'm glad that atleast I've a job at CGH . Eventhough it might not be the place that I wanted to work at but atleast I should be thankful that I've a job . I've to thank mommy , if it wasnt for her , I think I will still be rotting my ass at home . Love you mom . Well , my job is to just screen the patients at the A & E , take their temperature and just observe the patients . Went for trainning just now on my first day of work and I kinda enjoy it . Kerja lepak je , siapa taknak ? All the makciks there , kaki gerek . Hehe . Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day cause I'll be working night shift for 12 hours . -.-' but look at the bright side , Im going for facial tomorrow at 12 noon ! hehehehehe . :D Can't wait . 
Anyway , spend my whole day with boyfriend yesterday . Okay wait , before that I met roshan . Haha . He told me that he wanted to give me a treat at starbucks . hehe , so why not ? Its been awhile since I met him . We did some catching up session and he told me something about himself that I least expected . Well , atleast all that was in the past . I did told him how much I miss working at mac and how much I miss being around the group of people at TECC , slacking with the crews & riders after work . I miss all of that , but its kinda sad that every one now got their own things to do . I miss those kaki gerek people , where you all gooooooooooooooo ? :( ok , shall stop talking about this , so slack with roshan at starbucks and soon after meet the boy . Went dating with him and had dinner at seoul garden , eventually I had an awesome evening spend with the boy . Thank you hor ! He make me feel so fat but yet happy nak mampos . Hehe . Love you lah . Ohh yes , I've watched the movie called "Aku masih dara." Besttttttttttttttt giler , I nak suami macam Firdaus (Asyraff muslim) can ? Dier handsome , pandai ngaji , kuat dalam agama & kalau dapat seseorang macam dier kan bagus . Nak husband like that please . Heheheheh . Okayyyyyyyyyyyy bye . :D
Misses .
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Hi . Im currently feeling bored , so I shall update my blog since I have the time . I have already apply for my higher nitec course . Hopefully I can get into any of the course that I pick , cause I really want to start school and continue with my study . This time I will really study hard , so 15th february ! Please come quick ! So that I can know what's my results ? Plus I can't bare sitting at home all the time with nothing to do and yes , I have resign working at ivic . Working at ivic there sucks and management is so cock up , hate it . Well thanked god , I would'nt be working there anymore . I've also interview for a new job at wingtai building yesterday , so hopefully I get to work in any of the retail outlets like topshop , uniqlo or diva ? Insyaallah . *crossfingers*
Anw , things with the boy is really doing good now and we are gonna turned 8th month this month . Eventhough its just our 8th , but still Im glad that he's still here with me despite our ups and downs . Hehe . Yes , the reason that I posted pictures from the times with the dudes and dudette , it cause Im missing you guys a lots ! Please meet up soon ! :') *hugs*
Ohhh yeahs , not to forget this , my back problem is back . Went to CGH for my appointment this morning with mom and I'm on antibiotics for another week . Weeeeeeeeeeee . -.-' Again doctor says that I might be going for another surgery . Urgh . Had enough of that actually but nak baik punya pasal kannnnnn , surgery pon surgery laaaahhh . Not that happy about the surgery thing but Im happy that I got a $500 treatment voucher plus 15 percent treatment voucher from new york skin solution . Hehe . So shall be going for facial next week with mom . Hehehe . :D
Okay bye and I love my people . :)